showerthoughtspost:

In the word “Threshold” you pronounce the “h” twice

you know life is hard. this isn’t something that is easy to talk about. but i always feel like i’m the one that is left out. that i am the one that isn’t important. i don’t know if that is from me being the only child or what. but i always feel irrelevant to people. in high school i had a friend group with me and two other girls. i thought we were all best friends and then the next year came around and they started excluding me. so i was like forget this i didn’t need them. fast forward to now. the same thing feels like its happening. so i don’t know what to do anymore. it hurts knowing that know on gets me. that no one considers me as a best friend. i know i close myself off at some points but life is hard. i’m going through things that i cant comprehend. i’m 21 and i feel like i’m not going anywhere in life…. so if you guys remembered we worked things. he is my rock now. he has been there to support me and love me and give me the logical reasoning to when i overreact to things. i just don’t know i guess i have PTSD from high school to where i feel like everything is happening again. they hang out with out asking me. they text each other just personally and not in our group chat. so i guess i’ll always just be the odd one out… and that is how it’ll be… :c i don’t even know anymore…

honestly i knew from the beginning that it was meant to be and that i loved him more than anything. That is still proven to be true to this day. i love him with all my heart and if things were to go south now i honestly for real would not know what to do with myself. i cant let him go like i did before. he is my soulmate, my bestfriend, my boyfriend, my world, and my everything. so i hope and pray everything keeps going the way that it is going now. he makes my heart melt. he makes me smile all the time. i’ve never been happier than i am now. i know that if i put all my happiness into this one person he can also turn everything upside down and be my greatest sadness. but so far everything is good. he makes everything better. even my life at home isn’t the best but he makes me forget all about the bad times. i want to thank him everyday for the way he makes me feel and the way he treats me. he has improved. we both have. the time we spent apart we changed and experienced things without each other and realized that we need each other more than we really thought. so in a way i am thankful for that time spent apart because it has made our love stronger than it was before. so i love him. i really do love him with all my heart. ❤️ i am never letting him go i see the rest of my life with him. i love him. ❤️